Delilah and I got on the road and to our first appointment on time. Met with the Psych Nurse. Her name was Carol. She was NOT the lady that I met three months ago. She was quite concerned over why it has been three months since I have been in. (no kidding- PTSD, Clinical Depression with suicidal episodes...) Yes I should be seen more often. I will be seeing her again in one month and the therapist at the end of the month. No clue how that will go, but all for the trying. Can you see the walls going up? Sarcasum I am so good at it after a long day. She did not agree with the lady from three months prior that I should be committed to Four Winds. Which has been weighing very heavy on my mind these past months. Should I just be put away? Would that be the best thing for me? For everyone? What would happen to Delilah? How would the bills get paid? Just the thought of all these things has had me in such a state these past three months..... a tornado of thoughts.
Anyhow, the nurse today, saw no reason for me to go in service. Which was a nice weight off my shoulders. Check that off the list. We made my appointments to see her in one month and to see the Therapist at the end of the month. Delilah and I went on to get ready for the next appointment.
But first. A new collar. PINK! We need to look all pretty for the Veterans.
Remember above where it says PTSD? Think about that..... I pull into the VA Employee parking Garage and parked where they told me to. Right next to the *CONSTRUCTION*. They were demolishing some concrete in the garage. The sound was terrifining.
Guess who had a panic attack in her car? And no drugs? Yep, that's me. I was in full shut down mode- and was supposed to be there to meet the head of the Rec/Therapy Department. Special circumstances taking a Service Dog and going to work on making her also a Therapy Dog for the Veterans. I had to put on the big girl panties and just deal with it.
Drumroll please........... She passed with flying colors today. This was her first visit. And she did really well with the Veterans, we go back on Monday for my paperwork and her second visit. If my paperwork clears we can set up the third appointment which is when *we* get our ID's. Two more visits after that and we will be official VA Therapy Visitors. It's our way of paying back. Delilah helps me so very much just by being near me, without her I don't sleep.
I hope she brightened their days today.